Personal Experience with Heilkunst
Personal Experience with Heilkunst
[Note: This article was written for an audience of Heilkunst patients, students and practitioners, and assumes some familiarity with Heilkunst. Coming soon is a companion piece that will be a gist of the principles of Heilkunst. Meantime, see the article on Healing and Curing.]
I came to Heilkunst almost four years ago, in time for the real healing and curing that all my previous struggle had been leading me to.
As my practitioner, Rudi Verspoor, pointed out from the beginning of treatment, Heilkunst might actually be using many of the same remedies I had tried many times before with homeopathy. But the previous trial and error method, with no real systematic approach, apparently hadn’t made good use of all those potentially useful remedies.
With the “classical” approach to homeopathy, I had many so-called “aggravations” that confirmed to me that the remedies did have some energetic effects. So why weren’t they helping? My understanding now is that those aggravations were really healing reactions, but because they weren’t considered within any meaningful context, they were kind of tossed aside as par-for-the-course discomforts.
Eventually my classical homeopath recommended that I try Vega testing instead, so I did that for a bunch of years too, taking an enormous hodgepodge of remedies. I knew that there was a kernel of truth somewhere in homeopathy, or related to homeopathy, so I kept trying to find it. I certainly held the common thought that “The next Rx might be the one.” Plus I had compelling emotional attachments to kind, compassionate homeopaths! But I guess I was following Hahnemann’s example even when I didn’t know it, as I eventually discontinued the treatment that I knew was wrong, even before I knew of a treatment that was right.
Then, about 10 years later, in 2002, I found Dr. Elmiger’s book, Rediscovering Real Medicine, in which he described a sequential method of treatment that removed the obstaces-to-cure that were responsible for the failure of so many cases. That was a turning point. I emailed him to find out how I could receive treatment, but there only seemed to be one person in the US who was trained by him, and that was too far away. But I kept researching and finally came across Heilkunst.
I read the articles online, and knew that this was the right system to pursue. It turned everything I had previously understood about natural medicine on its ear. Not only did it make sense in a way that no other method or system had before, but it was accessible, affordable, seemingly less complicated and more elegant. And it didn’t require entire cupboards full of remedies to take every day! All the other treatments were a struggle on all those fronts, and after all that, they still amounted to hit-or-miss, shooting in the dark, reinforcing my fear that this earthly existence is completely unfathomable.
After reading Rudi’s articles it occurred to me that the way to overcome my disease was not going to be through the inordinate strain and complicated struggle to make a treatment work. I saw that it would come in an easier way, as the resolution would naturally evolve out of the deeper understanding that Heilkunst could bring. I knew that although I’d still need to put in the effort as always, maybe I didn’t have to fight so hard to penetrate the mystery. Heilkunst was beginning to show me that.
My condition was complicated and seemingly a mystery. I was very destabilized from a lot of trauma, and then had additional insults to injury in terms of allopathic medical trauma. For ten years my life was consumed by the complicated tasks surrounding daily intravenous feedings. I didn’t have enough appetite or digestive capacity to eat enough to sustain myself without that intervention. And that band-aid treatment nearly cost my life when the I-V caused me to go into septic shock.
One could imagine the challenges I faced with a diagnosis of anorexia for 30 years, even when the doctors themselves admitted that I didn’t meet the criteria for that diagnosis! They used it anyway, because it was the best they had… which was just as rational as searching for the lost wallet under the streetlamp when you had really lost it in the dark alley.
I had pursued dozens of natural healing methods relentlessly for many years prior to this, and many of those were valuable. But after years of treatments and therapies with countless practitioners — including all the variations on a theme of homeopathy — none afforded me any improvement with the critical issue.
It took some time with Heilkunst before I began to feel a major shift, which came about nine months into the treatment, and was nothing less than monumental. I began to notice that I wasn’t living in despair anymore. I certainly still experienced feelings of despair and doubt at times, although less and less.
I still had feelings of fear and deep sadness, but my entire relationship to that changed. Even though I experienced the feelings, they didn’t consume me, and I began to notice that I was gaining some perspective and sense of deep stability in the eye of the storm. I was aware of the difficult feelings more as passing visitors and wasn’t so completely hijacked by them anymore.
Then I knew the power of Heilkunst in a personal way that I hadn’t known it before. At about this point I took about a nine-month break from treatment, for reasons only my life force really knows for sure. But when I resumed, it was only some months later that my eating began to improve.
In 2004 the indwelling catheter I used for feedings had to come out — my body’s way of saying it’s time to sink or swim. And in spite of all the fear and doubt, I knew I was going to swim; I just didn’t know exactly how! There were a few scary months in limbo, not being able to eat nor having artificial feeding, but I was beginning to trust the process of recovery. And soon I was eating. In one sense I still don’t know how, but I’m sure that the genius of the remedy does, guided by the truth of the system that knows how to apply them!
The saga continues. I have further to go to treat the cause of my fatigue. A key event on my timeline is coming up soon, and then in a short while I’ll be working on the miasms. But I feel already that my life has been healed. Really, a person can live with fatigue but not without eating. So whatever time it takes to remove the remaining disease, I can say that Heilkunst has already been successful for me on the level of physical survival as well as the deeper sense of stability.
Hypnotherapy training also has been a great help especially in conjunction with the Heilkunst emotional remedies. Actually now I see all the tools I use as working within the scope of Heilkunst.
I’d like to bring out a particular point that I think has made my example something to write home about especially for my family members. I had a very poor prognosis in the conventional sense. Nowhere in the medical literature that I pored over or in any of my doctors’ experience (conventional or otherwise) had anyone seen a case of “atypical” anorexia with all the known causes ruled out. And certainly not much was understood about someone with this kind of condition for 10… 20… 30 years.
I hope this illustrates for others that even in a case where the prognosis is poor and the condition is barely understood, Heilkunst worked beyond the limits of that understanding. And the reality of this cure is something that I know from my own visceral experience. And I’m sure it’s something that other patients as well as the parents of kids being treated will know, because they know their child better than even the most sympathetic “holistic” physician does.
So I hope my example lends some encouragement to others facing mysterious conditions or pigeonholed diagnoses that don’t help to understand and treat the real problem.
With deep gratitude for Rudi, Patty and the whole HCH community, especially Dr. Hahnemann for leading the way!
Student in the DHHP program at Hahnemann College for Heilkunst