Further Thoughts for Healing
A Unique Refrigerator List
Thoughts for Healing
..(if you have a huge refrigerator!)
These are some thoughts I put down in no particular order. You can read them in no particular order, no particular amount. Close your eyes and point. (I wish I had known about that method in high school).
You’re not supposed to learn anything from this. Let’s get that out of the way first. I’m just writing this because I’m a writer, and some days I do things like this. More about that later. For now, just be assured that the things I’m suggesting have been rigorously field tested under the most extreme conditions of lying there on the couch in quiet desperation. I’ve been there.
I think this is going to be more like recipes than a shopping list, come to think of it. Recipes, or experiments, tested under surreal conditions, so your safest bet is to test them yourself.
The first one, and one of my personal favorites, is to abstain from the language of suffering and limitation. This one really comes out amazingly well. Try it for one day, one hour, or just in that one second when you find yourself indulging in thoughts of helplessness. Decide not to say what you were going to say, or interrupt the thought in progress. Then just notice how you feel.
Discover in how many peculiar forms you tend to express that. Listen to yourself, when you affirm helplessness by stating it in so many subtle ways. You’ve crafted those subtle ways to get under your own radar. It’s not your fault, so don’t blame yourself for being an idiot; that would really be idiotic. But just get curious about how you do that.
Not why, but how. That alone can be more useful than many hours of analyzing problems.
Do the Inner Smile. Visualize a smiling face in front of you, someone you love, and then feel yourself absorbing the smiling energy into your body. You can take it into your 3rd eye and then down through the chakras, if you like that, or just feel it being absorbed from head to toe.
These are simple methods for protecting your energy field and things like that, but besides all that, they just help you feel better on the spot. It’s not a time consuming or difficult practice. One moment here, one moment there. One powerful moment is.. well, powerful.
Experiencing the magic of one fearful thought bursting open and liberating a flow of soft, loving energy, is truly more powerful than my suffering. And I’m human like everyone else, so I suspect it works in some similar way for others. Try it.
One way you can change your experience in the moment is to go more deeply into it. Or do something completely different, but really pay attention to finding something strange and unusual. That’s not the same thing as denying your feelings. It can bring you even more in touch.
Take a curious look at one of your beliefs, like examining an object in a museum. Bring your pure heart’s discernment to it. Is it helping you be free and clear, or does it feel stagnant and heavy? Do you feel dynamic and flowing with it, or clogged up?
This is the process of developing the discernment that comes from deep personal engagement in life. Living in the dynamic experience just feels a whole lot different from living in beliefs. It feels more true and real, like fine tuning the picture, all the brilliant colors come into focus and it all comes to life. It’s a “Yay, I’m alive!” feeling, just so you know what that is when it hits.
You can be ready at any moment to release what isn’t true, simply by lovingly recognizing the fear-based assumptions you hold. The sword of love is fierce.
Try this for a year, a month, or one day: Fast from mass media and all sources of “information” that give you a feeling that the energy of fear is attached to it.
If you get a sense of desperation, or something sounds like a frantic injunction, that’s a red flag. “If you don’t (do this), then (something bad will happen)” is a common form those messages take. You can become more aware of them and how they affect you.
Then you become savvy about this kind of propaganda, the same way that you’re savvy about advertisements. A sexy ad doesn’t make you buy a car. It’s really the same thing with all the messages that come into our heads. It’s all advertising, and you don’t have to buy it each time.
Just applying a rule across the board and going to sleep doesn’t seem to work either, so we stay awake and use discernment in each moment. I’ve tried it both ways, and I recommend the latter.
But as always, it’s your own experiment, and I never really learned much from reading anyone’s great ideas. Other peoples’ thoughts have helped inspire me to devise my own experiments, so it’s not all worthless. But mostly the reason I’m writing this is just because the energy is going that way.
Try not talking at all for one day. I have no idea what you’ll learn, but I discovered some interesting things; that’s all I can say. Then you can make up your own experiments knowing that you’ll discover something interesting about even walking to the mailbox in a different way than usual.
You can just refuse to participate any longer in this disconnect from your deep inner intelligence. Decide to turn your life around on a dime. All manner of blessings will follow.
Michael Hedges wrote a song, “Let imagination lead; reality will follow through.”
You don’t have to run the universe. What a relief.
Think of what you can do that nourishes the heart and shows you something new. Wonder what that something new will be. You can make a point of keeping the company of people who model health and value personal freedom and integrity.
Hang out with spirit guides. Get newly acquainted with the universe. As you develop this inner connection, then “deep nourishment and protection” isn’t just an abstraction, but it becomes the reality you live in, like your house. More and more, day by day.
Maybe it’s a rhythm you can whistle to or dance to, even before you understand it. Make your life an expression of love and dignity; live passionately and honor your deepest values always.
We want what’s resonant and real, and anything else can be thrown out. There’s no need to struggle to “get” something that isn’t resonant. Resonance doesn’t always mean you have to love it, in the usual sense, but it’s right, for the time that it’s right, and you can appreciate the rightness of it. Maybe that’s love too.
I could think up a bunch of ways of “honoring your deepest values,” but then the refrigerator list would get too long. And really, what we don’t need are lists that assume “This doesn’t come naturally to you, so you have to memorize this behavior and be alert, march in position, hup hup.”
What we can do is reawaken our natural instincts and develop a trusting relationship with our inner selves. So that we know that the inner resources are there, and we don’t need to impose artificial rules on ourselves.
Natural law works a whole lot better than artificial rules for doing the right thing. So all these things I’m suggesting in the way of “this is a good thing to do”, are just suggestions to help you discover the way natural law works within you and between you and the world. If they don’t, then please don’t force them, but maybe they will inspire you to find a more elegant way.
Here’s one. Pay attention to what you say when you react to someone by justifying why you did or didn’t do something. If someone asks you to explain your actions, try saying, “I don’t know; I just did.” Or even the toddler version, “Just because.”
Really, try it. It can break the habit of relating to people by reacting. There are many other ways in which we react in a knee-jerk way from our ego mind’s habits, but try that one and see.
I’ll go out on a limb here and generalize about “people.” People generally like to have their creative juices nourished every day, even in small ways. Do we nourish the juices, or do the juices nourish us? Whatever you do, but please, not because it’s therapeutic! No “music therapy”!
There is nothing to fix. Just find where the joy is, even if you don’t know yet and all you can recognize is a little spark of something. Go with that and explore. See, there are things we just didn’t know we could do, because we thought this healing thing was some rarefied newage guru thing, and honestly we didn’t see people actually turning their lives around.
But these things I’m suggesting are easy to do, and they work even better than complicated things, in my experience.
Let your mind be gently reminded that you have a healthy and vigorous life force and personal will, and you can relearn to hear the messages of your deepest inner intuition, which will lead you toward your best healing.
That, or just feel the pillow under your head. Either one, whichever is more appropriate at the moment.
The negative force in the world seems to be for the purpose of our spiritual development, to provide the resistance we need to work against. Muscles need resistance in order to develop strength. So you come to appreciate even the resistance for its real purpose.
Illness can be a divine opportunity for healing, in that sense. When you honor the adversity as it comes, for the remediation it provides, without denying your experience, then each moment is new.
Go back to basics, to the simple attention to the moment. The richness of your own loving heart can be experienced even during a moment of excruciating pain. It’s a fact, not just an abstraction.
I know that at times, and at times I forget, but I remember it more now as it seems to tap me on the shoulder and remind me on its own. I count my blessings more and more.
When you enter deeply into your direct perception of something, you might find that your usual thoughts suddenly become rather suspect to yourself. You felt sadness or pain or fear, and now you’re not even sure it’s really awful or scary or what. Maybe it’s just a sensation of energy, and you can observe as it changes into something else entirely, like some sci-fi movie.
Be a sci-fi writer of your moments. This negative force has no power of its own. Discover the many ways in which you can reclaim the power that you have denied. Put “sci-fi writer” on your resume. Everyone is a writer, a musician, artist, singer, whistler, eater, mail retriever.. When someone asks you what you do, sometime you could say one of those things. Why not?
Be the warrior of moments. You can meet an enemy skillfully by defeating the false power of evil, or something serious like that. You already have mastery, so just give yourself a title.
There’s a Taoist master who says that “Banana Head” is the most advanced level of attainment. I insist on choosing my own fruit, though. All this of course can only be done with humor and love, although there are distorted versions of those that don’t work: The codependent love and the “put on a happy face” denial we learned.
The authentic love seems to be cultivated by expressing gratitude. Even when you don’t know how to be thankful, you can just make a little room for it, and it will come visit little by little.
Start small: “The pillow is supporting my head. Great.” That seems like no big deal, but just see what happens. You wouldn’t think that feeling the pillow under your head could cure cancer. If you believe it can’t, it probably can’t.
But you might find that it changes something so that your whole perception of things in that moment shifts in a sort of magical way. Now how powerful do you think that could be?!
The vibration of love is always dynamic, never static, but flowing and pure. Nice words. See what your own experience is like. Whatever problem you have, how do you sense it? Color, sound, shape? Then change the color or sound or shape. Now how do you feel about it? If you’ve changed the way you represent something in your mind, you’ve changed the way you experience it. Then what is it?
Use the energy of anger, of fear, use whatever you encounter; try using it before you complain and bemoan next time. Try that when you have completely finished with the despair experiment. (But not before, of course, if you’re still commited to the despair experiment).
You’re free at any time to recognize that that experiment has failed, and you have nothing left to lose. Ponder this deeply. Now move on. No blame, no shame. Bring it to the heart, and you extract the jewel hidden within it. Reach for the jewel in everything.
After all my intense efforts to learn the truth, I don’t think there’s any knowledge that really helps in the way we think it should. When you relax back into your authentic self, things just become easier, and you’re not going around trying to apply the right solutions to things.
If you do that, you find that in that moment that you were busy trying to apply a solution, you weren’t present for the dynamic moment that would bring the real solution. So all your stress and strain to make sure the right thing happens, actually prevents you from engaging with the rightness of the moment.
It’s like you can’t hear the subtle sound of life for all the noise you think it necessary to make. Just take a leap of faith for a second and listen, and then the path will be guided by real faith that is based in your own knowing, not belief.
Become the magnificent, free spirit you really are, and bring yourself fully to your sacred purpose in all its implications in your life. Write about your own experience, which helps keep the inner processes cooking, and then you will know things rather than believe things. Know that you are deeply blessed, and give thanks. You are the embodiment of love here in this funny body. The heavens are smiling on you.
Look at pictures of yourself at age 5, before the spark went into hiding.
Sometimes the way to change something you don’t like is to actually do the “wrong” thing even more. If you eat junk food, eat junk food even more. Eat it consciously and deliberately. Gather data on various parameters of the chip eating experience and run a statistical analysis of the data. Or just pay such deep attention to the many aspects of the chip eating experience, that the bills go unpaid and the laundry is piling up.
Anything you do, do it fully! If you think you have a problem, I submit that you really haven’t experienced this so-called problem thing fully enough. I don’t care if you’re eating the whole refrigerator; you haven’t done it fully enough yet. This is a homeopathic cure; like cures like.
Don’t beat yourself up trying to counteract your wayward ways. Go deeper into your experience, and you’ll find solutions in the strangest places. Okay, if that idea is a little too out-there, then try this. Next time you have a minor physical discomfort, say, an aching shoulder, try this. Close you eyes. Breathe. Notice the ache. Remind yourself it’s okay to stop resisting it or trying to fight it. It’s okay to go into the experience. Explore the ache in a relaxed way. See how it feels then.
If you’re in a lot of discomfort, maybe your attention wanders. That’s okay. Do this exercise once, for a few seconds, and then another time you’ll remember to try it again. Another moment. That’s all it is.
When you feel stuck or confused, you can also go deeper into stuck and confusion. Try that and see how confused you can get about your own confusion. When you’re that confused, what else is there but to break through to something else. It’s fun! And give thanks.
When you have nothing to give, do something for another living being. Bury some orgonite next to a tree, send some smiling energy to someone. When you’re wrapped up in your own stress, try giving your energy when you think you have none.
Not in the self-sacrificing way weâ€™ve been taught. Not as a codependent doormat. Develop real discernment and give from the heart, and you will discover your inexhaustible Source. Find your gratitude; even at the worst moment it’s there, I can tell you.
Rediscover the juice. Music is juicy for me pretty consistently. But some days the juice goes into writing moreso. No matter that the crap of the day is falling from the sky. You can live in joy every day, because a day is thousands of moments.
The painful moments come and go, moving from foreground to background, always moving, so that the You who is at the eye of your sometimes hurricane life is smiling inside.
“When a man finds his way, heaven is gentle.” -Kwai Chang Caine